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Sunday, May 04, 2008

hi world.

there are alot of things that i wanna get off my chest at one go but i just dont know how to start. if you were to ask me what happened, i dont know how to answer either. nothing happened. maybe its just me and the hormonal world in me is changing. the only world that can perfectly describe the kind of emotions im feeling now is empty.

everything is different now. the situation changes, and even the feelings are different now. its getting harder to face it, and im starting to run away before i even hit the finishing line. its getting blurry and i cant see anything ahead of me anymore. i dont know how long i can take all these but im hanging on, as you can see. maybe it was a wrong decision to start with. but whats done is done, no more pinpointing. i always wish that i can let go of everything easily, while keeping the misery to the minimum. its easy to see that the heart aint there anymore. but its difficult to let go. i've tried so many times and i gave up, eventually. im tired of everything, to be honest. im starting to feel indifferent abt everything. i felt like i dont even care anymore. i may be keeping a happy front in front of everybody all day, but deep inside, i feel empty. i hope time will sort everything out by itself. im leaving things as it is right now. and i pray that i'll be happier someday again. : )

enough of emo-ness. work's been ok. been working for a month plus now. getting used to it. having orientation on mon and tues, which means, no need to work! yayness. but boo-ness, cos i'll be going for the orientation alone. i thought i might be able to go with the other two new girls. *growls* but hopefully everything's gonna be ok and fun!

went to jasmine's 21st bday chalet today at hometeam ns chalet (pasir ris) today. it feels damn weird seeing all the old faces i used to see so often in the past. its how weird that we dont even talk or say hi anymore. maybe its just weird. i missed the happier good old days.