Monday, October 27, 2003
hmmm. my dearest daddy broke the acrylic ( or was it glass? ) cyn gave me for my bday. there was a msg written on it using acrylic pens. it was really sweet. and my daddy broke it. he didnt really apologize for it, and yet, he
blamed me for being clumsy, and not knowing how to put my things properly. i mean,
hello, you're the clumsy one and you blaming me for it. hmprf. sigh. it seemed like an phenomenom. but come to think of it, our friendship, which was once so strong, is broken now too. into pieces. we dont really talk now, but id still regard you as my best friend forever. :)
ive forgotten everything. i've moved on. i'm happier. its not entirely true. i would still think of you at times and how we could have been. and you would think by now, i would know my way around. i shouldnt miss you too badly, i should be on familiar ground. you are wrong. they said im crazy. crazy to give up a good catch for someone who doesnt deserve my love. two good catchs yups. :) i
must be crazy, then. i dont give a damn. perhaps if i was willing, to let someone take me by the hand, they could show me happy places, in this unfamiliar land. they could give me happiness, they could show me love. perhaps im only homesick, for all the joys that once were mine. thats whr i want to belong. i must accept that they and you, belong to another place and time. but i know that deep within my heart, theres a place whr only you reside. and when the pain of loneliness comes, it knows that is whr i hide. so if sometimes it seem to you, im clinging onto the past, yes i am. its mostly cos i cant yet accept that our love didnt last. both of us believed that we could have gone much better, but circumstances didnt allow us to. maybe its just too late. i wish we could still try. i still miss you. no matter how hard i try, i've yet to get over you, for the part of me thats still alive, believes you love me too. i dont know wth you are feeling right now, and i do not want to ask too. fear, perhaps. that look in your eyes, tells me that you still wana try. i dont know, i might have misunderstood your actions, your everything. surely we still have feelings for each other? sigh tell me how you feel alrites. :) maybe there will come a day, when that part will finally die. by then, a new love i will finally try. what a splendid day that will be, when i awaken to discover, ive moved on, to a great new land, with a great new friend and lover.
but still, tanku for all those wonderful times you spent with me. tanku for all the encouragements and motivations, and the confidence you have in me. i wont forget you, never. i will do you proud. i want my surprise. HAHA. and my kiss too. :D
guess what, 8% of singaporeans actually suffer from depression. im amazed. i might be the next patient. i have all the symptoms listed. beware. HAHAHA.
3 to everyone mugging for the o's and a's. <333
A rainbow appeared at02:06***
